Monsters...Among Other Things

So. I didn't post yesterday. I was saving time after dinner, but my book was calling me and my brain wanted to be turned off. So I didn't post. And guess what-my book is calling me even now! But. I. Will. Finish. This. And. Then. I. Will. Do. More. Bible. Bee.

Anyway, the last two morning I have woken up in panic. My gut is churning. My heart is thudding. And I just want to shut my eyes and go back to sleep. Yes, I have woken up stressed, and hey, I still have 8 days left! Is this going to keep going? Maybe. We'll see. 

Also, today when I've been doing my verses, I'll get really involved in a long passage and my gut will start churning again. Nerves. Bother them. 

And yes, I have been remembering not to be afraid. I've been praying. I've been trying not to worry. I'll stop, and then it sneaks right back up on me. I have to recognize it and beat that monster back down the toilet! Then I can go back to the studying....which means that I will inevitably have to beat that monster right back down again. 

Soggy crackers! What a mess! But hey, this is life. It's amazing, and I wouldn't have it any other way. Without all the pain the joy wouldn't really be joy, would it? 

So there you have it. My words of wisdom for the day. Sounds like nonsense to me. And it is. Foolishness. But true.

And now, for me, I will type a passage here, and remember that this is not about me. Remember that nothing can separate me from His love. Remember that I must run the race to get the prize. Remember that I am blessed when I suffer. That I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, even beat those monsters down again, and again, and again. :)




Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written: "For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered." No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death no life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. 

Romans 8:35-39 NIV



Live the adventure!

Jo